Confession Time

I have a confession - I HATE being slow!!! I know, I know - I'm faster than everyone on the couch . . .and though I keep plugging along, I'm beginning to think I am destined to be forever slow and always at the very back of the back. This is why the turtle has become my spirit animal. 

Getting ready to cross the finish line with Michelle. 

I have another confession - I know I have to work harder at losing weight and eating healthier if I'm going to get any faster. I've really been emotionally eating for the past year and most the pounds I lost have crept back on. I could come up with all sorts of excuses, but instead I'd rather focus on solutions. Even though I try to convince myself I'm doing the best I can, I know I can do better. When I look at the pictures from the Run With The Bulls race I did on last Friday, I can see how much weight I've put back on and it's depressing. 

And my final confession - I'm dealing with a lot of pain. Whether is the extra  pounds, the crappy food, lack of cross training, getting old, or something else is going on, the pain in my back, knees, feet - heck my entire body is not making me a happy camper. My feet also go numb after wogging a mile. I have my yearly physical next week so going to see if the doctor and I can find some causes and solutions. 

We have been doing a study at church the past couple of weeks called "A Way Out", about how God gives us a way out of temptation. I know one of my greatest temptations is food, but I also know I can depend on God and ask Him to help me fight this temptation - in other words He will give me A Way Out.  I read the following in blog and it really hit home: 

"If you decided today that your body belongs to Christ, what would you want to stop doing? What do you need from God to make this change?" 

So I decided it's time to come up with a game plan:

1. Start using MyFitnessPal again DAILY to record my food intake. This has been successful for me in the past, so I know it is a good tool to use. Today I put in my current weight, tweaked my goal that I had set a year ago, and I set reminders to record every meal. 
2. Reread my "Made to Crave" book by Lisa Terkeurst. Once again this helped me a lot in the past and made me look at the reasons I emotionally eat. I need to be reminded again.  
3. PRAY - ask God to help me resist the temptation to buy/eat sweets and chips AND increase my desire for healthy foods. I know this is going to be on ongoing, minute-by-minute conversation with God!  

The Fall No Boundaries 5k Walk/Run Training started on Monday. I am coaching the walking group again and I've already seen I'm going to have to push myself more to keep up with my group!  I may never win a race, but yet walking/running has taught me so much about myself and given me a confidence that has impacted my life in positive ways. I'm not sure why God put me on this particular journey, but I'm going to continue on it no matter what the obstacles and challenges. Someday I will  complete a 5k in under an hour!!!